January 2, 2012
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It's a cold, cold night.
Its a lonely nightthoughts drifting
through my mind
like a leaf drifting on the wind
loneliness is tough
toughest feeling
to overcome
why
do we need
affection, attention
lovemaking, caressing
why
when we lack it
do we become lost
feel abandoned, alone,
begin to doubt our
reflection in the mirror
begin to find and enlarge
our faults when we look
wondering
*perfect* enough
I wish to change
to adjust
to become
someone else
someone more
someone desired
someone lusted after
even if just for a moment
just to forget
the pain
the lonliness
the darkness
that gnaws at
my mind, my soul
like honey bees
to delicious nectar
I am drawn
to the taste
of passions bliss..yet
I'm destined
to look
yet never touch
to fantasize
yet never feel
to hunger
yet never feed
I've made thirst my door
always going for more
of what I can never have
wishing, dreaming for
what I can never have
and so it goes
to the depths of infinity
alone
lonely
always..me
~ 1.2.2012 ~
