August 27, 2012

• Wake, dream, question, change..

  
  waking from a long slumber,

  only to be in awe of the world I now see –

  is it possible for the worlds to coinside,

  to live simutaneously within

  or does one die so the other may live

  

  I feel as though I have lived most of my life half asleep
  everything is so twisted, so harsh, so hidden
  I am sick of the shadows..

  I’m beginning to realize most the things I was told as a kid –
  aren’t necessarily true
  things I witnessed, things I felt,
  things I was told,
  things that were ‘drilled’ into me
  the evil I seen, felt, and knew 
   it was not truth 

  I have been looking over my past
  almost like it’s someone else – when I do..
  discovering, learning,
  trying to solve the riddle of ‘self’
  who I am and what makes me tick
  what’s kept me holding on to the thin line of hope I have left

  the world I am beginning to ‘see’
  in my minds eye
  the world I’ve never thought truly existed
  is beginning to show itself after all these years,

  is peace really attainable
  am I really worth it
  or am i just once again fooling myself
  set up for failure, betrayal, hurt once again

  when my eyes are fully open,
  will I be living as ‘me’
  what will become of the old me,
  the distant memories,
  the past haunts
  will they live and breathe within me
  or will that ‘self’ die
  will I truly be free 
  will I live, truly live – in the new world I see

  “the truth will set you free”

  the ‘ole familiar phrase 

  but will that truth also mean death for me

  … … … .
  just that constant state of change
  never rest, relax, enjoy..

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