September 27, 2012
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Hold on, let go -more writings
What do you believe in?
What keeps you going when it seems nothing is there to hold onto?
What keeps you going when 99% of your hope is gone?
Is there really life out there?
A little something dusted off from my 'files'
Do I exist?
Do I exist in this world?
If I do, then why can't you see
this pain and anguish inside of me?
Your anger it does effect me.
I stand tall, and I take what you give.
I still love you despite what you say.
Why can't you respond to me in another way?
What is it that makes you so angry?
Can't you see what your anger is doing to me?
I hurt, and I take, and I bleed...
why can't you give me what I need?
I need love, I need patience,
I am the mother of your children.
So why do you hurt me so?
Please show me your sweet side,
show me the beauty I know you have inside.
I wish I could leave you
but my heart won't let me go.
I still think you will change
I still think that you really care.
But how do I dare?
You hurt me, and then you love me.
How confusing this is to me.
Why can't you see what you’re doing to me?
I cannot seem to leave you
I have no where to go.
I feel so weak....I cannot survive...
No one really seems to care,
they all just sigh...
If no one cares,
and no one does anything,
why should I?
Someday it will change, right?
I won't wind up dead...will I?
You wouldn't ever hurt me terribly would you?
Oh, love, what turmoil I am in.
My insides feel like they have died.
I never know what to say,
I never know what to do..
so scared of the anger that's inside of you.
It keeps me trapped,
trapped here in my own little world.
My world where you never hurt me
my world where people do care.
Tell me do I really exist?
If I do exist, tell me,
why doesn't anyone see me?
Why doesn't anyone care enough....
care enough to help me.
You have to leave they say,
but where will I go?
Take a stand they say.......
how can I when I am so weak?
Tell the police they say.....
How can I when I don't have the strength.
Confide in a friend, they say....
how can I when they turn the other way?
Tell me do I exist....
how will I ever feel alive again...
Tell me....how just how did all this begin?
I don't seem to remember life,
life when it was new, and beautiful.
All I seem to see
is all this hurt and pain inside of me....
Free Spirit
For I am like the wind,
you do not see me,
yet you know of me.
I am the gentle breeze in your hair.
I am the stillness.
I am the gentle warmth upon your soul.
I am the embrace of unconditional love.
I will feed your soul..
Embeded in your heart,
I will keep you company.
I am like the sun,
always warm I shine upon your face.
I am like the water,
I change my pattern,
I change my look,
yet I always remain the same.
I am like a brightly shining star,
I twinkle, and I shed my light upon you
I light up your dark nights..
I keep you company.
I am like the kiss of first love,
I will forever be in your memories.
I am like the summer sun,
I will carress your body
with my warm, loving touch.
I am like a Rosebud,
if you love me, nurture me,
and show that you care,
I will bloom.
I am guardian of your secrets,
I am woman,
I am a part of nature,
and nature is a part of me.
As a bird in the sky,
my spirit will always fly free.
When I say I love you
When I say I love you,
I am saying I cherish you.
When I say I love you,
I am saying I respect you.
When I say I love you,
I am saying I enjoy you.
When I say I love you,
I am saying I am here for you.
When I say I love you,
I am showing love in all I do.
When I say I love you,
It is in each word I say to you.
When I say I love you,
I am saying you're my best friend.
When I say I love you,
I am saying I'll never hurt you.
When I say I love you,
I am loving the you in me.
When I say I love you,
I am loving the me I see in you.
