April 23, 2013

• just hold me.. (writing)

  Not sure I like this just yet, I see room for improvements..
  But I'm going to share it anyway.. just because ;}

  

  will you hold me in my darkness,
  when I am drowning in my fears, my insecurities -
  hold me, don't quiet me,
  hold me, don't ignore me, judge me,
  hold me tight, and be real, forget the mask -
   hold me as the true and raw you
   hold me, tenderly, intimately,
   shield me - from myself
   help me not to go within,
  withdrawing into myself again
   hold on and don't let me drown,
   love me as the imperfect person I am
   look into my eyes openly, honestly,
   hold me as I shake and tremble,
   as I struggle to give voice to the dark void
   that smothers my very existence..
   just hold me and allow me to drift
   even if just for a little while
   into the blissful dream, of my youth
   my dreamlands,
   where soft, round hills
  of tall grass, and wildflowers
   blow softly in the winds,
   where my Knight stands steady by my side
   in both battle, and in peace..
   will you hold me till the storm subsides,
   until the sun rises,
   shining into the dark night of my soul -
   without judging me, without lashing out,
   will you begin then, to understand
   just how much courage, and strength of spirit
   it took for me to even get to this point?
   
  to share my darkest moments,
   my scars, my abuse, my imperfectness
   is truly the most intense, intimate decision of my life..
   I feel .. awakened
   don't let me drown..

   

  (C)042213

  • 8:33 pm
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