November 16, 2009

• In loving memory..

  As many of you know, I'm a poet at heart.. I wouldn't call this a poem, but I wrote it thinking of Carol today.. tears and all.. It wasn't meant to be from her point of view at first, but ended up that way.. Not sure if I like it though..

  I spend my days, praying for a second chance
  For a cure, for hope of that magic medicine
  There are some days that I don’t feel so good
  So tired at the end of the day, wanting to give up
  I need a miracle, I need a cure.
  Heavy tears seep from my eyes as I
  Pray - I’ll find some peaceful sleep tonight
  To one day be free from this disease

  I’m so tired of this battle
  Everywhere I turn, I am reminded
  The woman in the mirror, is just a shell
  Its not really me, I’m more, I’m so much more
  Than just another face of Breast Cancer
  I’m a woman, I’m a fighter, and I’m a survivor,
  A Mother, A daughter, An Aunt,
  A grandmother, A cousin, a friend
  I’m more than just another face
  A sad story, another statistic
  I am so much more.

  In a distant hospital room I lie
  I’m so scared this will be the time
  Cancer brought me to my knees

   I’m not ready, I don’t want to die
  Tears seep from my eyes.
  I’ll never admit how scared I am,
  Nor how much I want to stay
  God, I’ve tried, I’ve fought so hard
  I’m so sorry hurting you this way
  I’m so tired, tired of fighting this,
  So weak, I just want to rest

  I don’t want anymore pain, needles and tests
  I don’t want to disappoint you, so
  Please don’t be mad
  Understand if you can,
  Cancer has not won; it will never kill the Carol
  You know and love, nor my spirit
  I am still full of love and of hope.
  I’ve done all I can, its now up to you

  In the arms of the angels, I’ll fly
  Away from this pain, and struggle

  Rest in the arms of the angels
  May you find comfort there.
  We love you Carol.

  1960-2009

  Blessings & Hugs, ~Helena
  

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